Oh, Burke. I am really missing you tonight.

I got a lovely new issue of one of my favorite Mama Magazine subscriptions in the mail. A wonderful gift from B much earlier this year. I usually find the beautiful pics of mamas and their babies so affirming, the articles so gentle and soothing. They leave me with such a wonderful sense that this world is not a horrible place, that there is still some good and normalcy out there. I can escape from my own personal horrors and longing and live vicariously through other people's happy times for a while... well today I am reduced to tears. My empty arms ache.


My little prince.


From another mom:
"If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever."